Friday, December 17, 2021

I Am the Messenger by Markus Zusak

 

Source of book: Audiobook from the library

 

Fairly early on in my blogging, I read The Book Thief, on the recommendation of several people who enjoyed it. I thought it was a good book, and later had my teens read it. Sometime thereafter, I put Zusak’s earlier book, I Am the Messenger, on my list, but never got around to reading it. 

 

The last couple of years, I have listened to audiobooks on my longer commutes, particularly when I have music gigs that require a bit of driving. This month was, well, December, and all musicians know what that means. So I grabbed this book, and finished it in a couple weeks. 


 

I Am the Messenger has very little in common with The Book Thief, other than, I suppose, a plot that contains darkness, but ultimately is very positive. Where the other book (as a Holocaust book) was mostly serious, this one was goofy, and didn’t entirely take itself seriously. Which is good, because the concept itself is implausible to say the least, and the framing story (which is only revealed at the end), kind of eye-rollingly postmodern and meta. The goofiness and open “of course this is improbable, but so what?” attitude is what makes it work. The narrator (and thus the author) simply invites the reader to suspend disbelief and go along with the story. And the story draws the reader in.

 

The book opens with a bungled bank robbery, and the narrator, Ed Kennedy, general loser, underaged cab driver, and directionless schlub, sprawled on the floor along with his three best friends and a few other hostages. One of whom, Marv, is pissed because the robbery means his shit-can car will get a parking ticket. In the end, Ed ends up taking action so the robber is caught, and he becomes a minor celebrity.

 

But then, he gets the ace of clubs in his mailbox, along with addresses and times, and his life goes down a bizarre rabbit hole. As he puts it, he becomes “The Messenger,” tasked with helping the various people he is directed to. So, to start with, he ends up befriending a lonely war widow, who thinks he is her late husband. He encourages a teenaged track star to run her races barefoot. And he ends up kidnapping and nearly killing a drunkard who rapes his wife. And those are just the first of his crazy tasks and bizarre adventures. 

 

Along the way, as one might expect, he learns a lot about life and himself, and has to face the ugliness of his family’s dysfunction. Eventually, he has to take stock of his own life, and decide if he will be better than he is or not. 

 

The plot is a lot of the fun, so I won’t spoil it more than that. Zusak creates a memorable cast of characters, representing a slice of the (mostly) working class Australia that he grew up in. There are few complete villains, and as a hero, well, Ed is flawed as hell. As are his friends. “Ritchie” (nicknamed after his botched tattoo), the unemployed and apathetic young man; Marv, owner of the terrible car and a large bank account and a secret he has told nobody; and Audrey, suffering from childhood trauma that prevents her from truly accepting love. Oh, and The Doorman, the ancient and odiferous dog that Ed inherited from his drunkard father. The Doorman is clearly the most functional major character in this book. 

Oh, and another thread running through the book is that Ed is hopelessly in love with Audrey, but she doesn’t return his affection (although she does love him as a friend.) 

 

The book goes down pretty easy. It has a bit of violence, some scary moments, and a bit of swearing - even by a priest - but nothing that doesn’t fit with the plot and characters. Ultimately, the message is an uplifting, if a bit generic one: everyone, even the Ed Kennedys of the world, can make a positive impact on the world, through the small, everyday interactions they have with others. In the times we live in, that is a relevant and hopeful message. Saving the world may be a bit much for us to expect of ourselves, but we can make it better in little ways. 

 

The audiobook was narrated by Marc Aden Gray, who captures the character of Ed Kennedy perfectly. He sells it perfectly when Ed says stuff like “I am terrible at cards and hopelessly bad at sex.” I imagine this book is fun to read, but I thought the audio version was a perfect way to experience it. 

 

 

 

Thursday, December 16, 2021

Biophilia by E. O. Wilson

Source of book: I own this.

 

One of the great things that the Library of America has done in the last few years is offer collections of non-fiction writings from science writers of the 20th Century. Often, these books are a bit hard to find used, are often out of print, or are available only in paperback. In some cases, people of my age may not be familiar with them. 

 

In this case, I splurged with a bit of my credit card rewards (essentially my “mad money” for books) and got the E. O. Wilson hardback. Biophilia is the first work in that book, and I decided to read it first. (Well, it was first in the book, so…) 


 I probably ran across Wilson somewhere at some point, because his name seems familiar, as does his work studying ants. But I certainly hadn’t read anything longer than a magazine article. 

 

Biophilia is a pretty short work, but it packs in a lot of wonderful writing, and thoughtful contemplation. The name itself was coined by Wilson to refer to the fact that humans naturally gravitate toward the natural world, toward living things. This instinct is certainly part of my personality, and indeed research has proven this to be a near-universal of human psychology. (And those who do not resonate with the natural world are sad persons indeed.) 

 

It is a bit difficult to describe the book itself, because it consists of a series of related but not directly connected essays on the subject. Each is different and could stand alone. The best I can probably do is hit some highlights. 

 

The book thinks long and hard about the ways that our evolutionary history still affects our psyches, and about the connections we have to other organisms in our ecosystem. 

 

I won’t quote from the opening chapter, but it is entitled “Bernhardsdorp,” after the town in Suriname where Wilson spent significant time researching ants - that was his major contribution to scientific knowledge. In particular, he was looking at leaf-cutter ants, which are, to be sure, thoroughly fascinating. It is easy to take for granted that these ants are well known - for many of us, we first saw them in action at the zoo. (Both Los Angeles and San Diego keep colonies.) But they are not native to the wilds of urban California, and were not well known outside of South America for much of history. The second chapter is all about these ants, and has a great description of the “superorganism” that characterizes Hymenoptera

 

People often ask me whether I see any human qualities in an ant colony, any form of behavior that even remotely mimics human thought and feeling. Insects and human beings are separated by more than 600 million years of evolution, but a common ancestor did exist in the form of one of the earliest multicellular organisms. Does some remnant of psychological continuity exist across that immense phylogenetic gulf? The answer is that I open an ant colony as I would the back of a Swiss watch. I am enchanted by the intricacy of its parts and the clean, thrumming precision. But I never see the colony as anything more than an organic machine. 

Let me qualify that metaphor. The leafcutter colony is a superorganism. The queen sits deep in the central chambers, the vibrant growing tip from which all the workers and new queens originate. But she is not in any sense the leader or the repository of an organizational blueprint. No command center directs the colony. The social master plan is partitioned into the brains of the all-female workers, whose separate programs fit together to form a balanced whole. Each ant automatically performs certain tasks and avoids others according to its size and age. The superorganism’s brain is the entire society; the workers are the crude analogue of its nerve cells. Seen from above and from a distance, the leafcutter colony resembles a gigantic amoeba. It’s foraging columns snake out like pseudopods to engulf and shred plants, while their stems pull the green pieces down holes into the fungus gardens. Through a unique step in evolution taken millions of years ago, the ants captured a fungus, incorporated it into the superorganism, and so gained the power to digest leaves. Or perhaps the relation is the other way around: perhaps the fungus captured the ants and employed them as a mobile extension to take leaves into the moist underground chambers. 

In either case, the two now own each other and will never pull apart. 

 

That’s marvelous writing, I must say. The whole book is that way, just gem after gem, the work of a master scientist who is also a great writer. 

 

From these specifics, Wilson in the next chapter moves to a more expanded view of the science of biology as a whole (with a discussion of Darwin versus Agassiz thrown in for good measure.) Here is another brilliant passage. 

 

The modern biological vision sweeps from microseconds to millions of years and from micrometers to the biosphere. But it is merely ordinary vision expanded by the electron microscope, earth-scan satellite, and other prosthetic devices of science and technology. The precise discipline is defined by the point of entry. Organismic biology explores the way we walk and speak; cell biology, the assembly and structure of our tissues; molecular biology, the ultimate chemical machinery; and evolutionary biology, the genetic history of our whole species. The modes of study depend upon the levels of organization chosen, which ascend in a hierarchical fashion: molecules compose cells, cells tissues, tissues organisms, organisms populations, and populations ecosystems. To understand any given species and its evolution requires a knowledge of each of the levels of organization sufficient to account for the one directly above it. 

 

The next chapter is all about the Bird of Paradise (the birds, not the plants that resemble them.) I have to quote this line, which is just amazing and profound. 

 

The role of science, like that of art, is to blend exact imagery with more distant meaning, the parts we already understand with those given as new into larger patterns that are coherent enough to be acceptable as truth. 

 

This is really a microcosm of the human experience. We learn through our senses, which give us an impression of the reality, not some pure reality itself. Just as an obvious, colors do not exist. Different wavelengths of electromagnetic radiation exist, and our sensory organs interpret a narrow band of these waves (or is that particles?) in a way that creates what we call “color” in our brains. We instinctively understand the “redness” of red light, but trying to explain it to anyone who cannot see color is pretty much impossible. Our very experience of the world is a metaphor our brains create. 

 

Wilson’s point is universal. Every scientific endeavor requires taking an immense amount of information, data, experience, whatever you choose to call it, finding patterns that work coherently enough to strike us as true. Nobody really knows what gravity is or how it works, but we can, through various metaphors, from classical physics to Einstein’s relativistic space-time, to predict its effects and accept it as truth. 

 

So too with the artist, of course. A poem is true (at least if it is a good poem), but it isn’t the truth. It is a metaphorical blending of imagery we understand with that other, new or forgotten, kernel of underlying reality that, when emotionally coherently blended by a master poet, can be accepted as truth. 

 

The next chapter, my favorite, “The Poetic Species,” takes this idea further. If I were to recommend a single chapter, this would be it. Here are some favorite quotes from it. Speaking of scientists and the endeavor above, he says this:

 

Their principal aim is to discover natural law marked by elegance, the right mix of simplicity and latent power. The theory they accept is the one that defeats rival schemes by uniquely explaining the experiments of numerous independent investigators. It is a sleek instrument forge by repeated exposure to stubborn and sometimes inconvenient data. Conversely, the ideal experiment is one that settles the rival claims of competing theories. Both the dominant theory and its patron data endure only if they fit the explanations of other disciplines through a network of logically tight and quantitative arguments. 

This tidy conception is made the more interesting by the deep epistemological problem it creates and the biological process it implies. Elegance is more a product of the human mind than of external reality. It is best understood as a product of organic evolution. The brain depends on elegance to compensate for its own small size and short lifetime. As the cerebral cortex grew from apish dimensions through hundreds of thousands of years of evolution, it was forced to rely on tricks to enlarge memory and speed computation. The mind therefore specializes on analogy and metaphor, on a sweeping together of chaotic sensory experience into workable categories labeled by words and stacked into hierarchies for quick recovery. 

 

 Dang, that’s amazing. It isn’t a new idea to me, of course, but he puts it so beautifully and, dare I say, elegantly? Here is more:

 

Scientific innovation sometimes sounds like poetry, and I would claim that it is, at least in the earliest stages. The ideal scientist can be said to think like a poet, work like a clerk, and write like a journalist. The ideal poet thinks, works, and writes like a poet. The two vocations draw from the same subconscious wellsprings and depend upon similar primal stories and images. But where scientists aim for a generalizing formula to which special cases are obedient, seeking unifying natural laws, artists invent special cases immediately. They transmit forms of knowledge in which the knower himself is revealed. 

 

That last line is thrilling. And another one:

 

The essence of art, no less than of science, is synecdoche. A carefully chosen part serves for the whole. Some feature of the subject directly perceived or implied by analogy transmits precisely the quality intended. The listener is moved by a single surprising image. 

 

This extended comparison of art and science really resonates with me. There is a tendency by many to set up art and science as opposed opposites, perhaps even as mortal enemies, but this is a gross misunderstanding. The two are so closely related in actual fact, that they can and should be seen as part of the same tradition, facets of the same wonder at life, existence, and being. It is no accident that many scientists are fans of poetry and music and art. Or that many artists, musicians, and poets seek inspiration not merely from the natural world, but from science itself. Wilson clearly is in that category, quoting Octavio Paz in this chapter, and expressing a deep admiration for artistry. 

 

The mind is biologically prone to discursive communication that expands thought. Mankind, in Richard Rorty’s expression, is the poetic species. The symbols of art, music, and language freight power well beyond their outward and literal meanings. SO each one also condenses large quantities of information. Just as mathematical equations allow us to move swiftly across large amounts of knowledge and spring into the unknown, the symbols of art gather human experience into novel forms in order to evoke a more intense perception in others. Human beings live - literally live, if life is equated with the mind - by symbols, particularly words, because the brain is constructed to process information almost exclusively in their terms. 

 

As I said, the whole chapter is amazing. The next one is on snakes, and their universal presence in all mythologies, likely reflecting our evolved mechanisms for not dying from snakebite. I won’t quote from it, but it is fascinating. 

 

“The Right Place” is similarly fascinating, tying evolutionary theory to recognized human behaviors. In this case, he makes the observation that, given a choice, humans naturally seek specific habitats, just like other animals. In our case, we tend to like to be on top of hills, in open country with some trees, overlooking water. Think about it: where do rich people tend to want to be…that lake or ocean or river view… Wilson ties this to where humans first evolved, and the way that our particular strengths made survival under those conditions easiest. 

 

The more habitats I have explored, the more I have felt that certain common features subliminally attract and hold my attention. Is it unreasonable to suppose that the human mind is primed to respond most strongly to some narrowly defined qualities that had the greatest impact on survival in the past?

 

He continues later:

 

The practical-minded will argue that certain environments are just “nice” and there’s an end to it. So why dilate on the obvious? The answer is that the obvious is usually profoundly significant. Some environments are indeed pleasant, for the same general reason that sugar is sweet, incest and cannibalism repulsive, and team sports exhilarating. Each response has its peculiar meaning rooted in the distant genetic past. To understand why we have one particular set of ingrained preferences, and not another, out of the vast number possible remains a central question in the study of man. 

 

The older I get, the less a facile and shallow “god in the gaps” argument satisfies. Wilson’s musings are scientifically supportable, of course, but also emotionally satisfying. We are how we are because of how we developed and evolved, and understanding that can help us understand how our instinctive reactions can work poorly in new situations.  

 

The penultimate chapter is “The Conservation Ethic,” and it is really great, but also depressing as hell. Let me give a few quotes to give the idea. 

 

When very little is known about an important subject, the questions people raise are almost invariably ethical. Then as knowledge grows, they become more concerned with information and amoral, in other words more narrowly intellectual. Finally, as understanding becomes sufficiently complete, the questions turn ethical again. Environmentalism is now passing from the first to the second phase, and there is reason to hope that it will proceed directly on to the third. 

The future of the conservation movement depends on such an advance in moral reasoning. Its maturation is linked to that of biology and a new hybrid field, bioethics, that deals with the many technological advances recently made possible by biology. Philosophers and scientists are applying a more formal analysis to such complex problems as the allocation of scarce organ transplants, heroic but extremely expensive efforts to prolong life, and the possible use of genetic engineering to alter human heredity. They have only begun to consider the relationships between human beings and organisms with the same rigor. It is clear that the key to precision lies in the understanding of motivation, the ultimate reasons why people care about one thing, but not another - why, say, they prefer a city with a park to a city alone. The goal is to join emotion with the rational analysis of emotion in order to create a deeper and more enduring conservation ethic. 

Aldo Leopold, the pioneer ecologist and author of A Sand County Almanac, defined an ethic as a set of rules invented to meet circumstances so new or intricate, or else encompassing responses so far in the future, that the average person cannot foresee the final outcome. What is good for you and me at this moment might easily sour within ten years, and what seems ideal for the next few decades could ruin future generations. That is why any ethic worthy of the name has to encompass the distant future. The relationships of ecology and the human mind are too intricate to be understood entirely by unaided intuition, by common sense - that overrated capacity composed of the set of prejudices we acquire by the age of eighteen.

 

Herein lies a lot of the difficulty. Humans struggle to think far enough ahead, particularly when the future and present are in conflict. (That’s the central problem of environmentalism: we need to pay costs now to avoid greater costs for our descendants in the future, and few want to do that.) One could even note that better standards of living now are in conflict with environmental protection, or that the right kind of authoritarianism could have better consequences down the road. Wilson, while definitely not a fan of authoritarianism (see below), wrestles with these issues. In addition, humans are pretty horrible. For Wilson, it seems almost hopeless for humans to truly act altruistically, at least at the population level. And, alas, it seems too common for humans to act in ways that are bad now and in the future. (See: Republican Party policies that harm most humans now, destroy the environment for future humans, and essentially enrich a handful of billionaires while making religious bigots feel powerfully self-righteous.) 

 

Human beings, for all their professed righteousness and brotherhood, easily discriminate against strangers and are content to kill them during wars declared for relatively frivolous causes. So it is much easier to find an excuse to exterminate another species. 

 

Furthermore, this leads to the unanswerable question of the purpose of humanity in the first place. We strive for fulfillment, and many of us for the common good. But does it ultimately mean anything? (See: Ecclesiastes)

 

The truth is that we never conquered the world, never understood it; we only think we have control. We do not even know why we respond a certain way to other organisms, and need them in diverse ways, so deeply. The prevailing myths concerning our predatory actions toward each other and the environment are obsolete, unreliable, and destructive. The more the mind is fathomed in its own right, as an organ of survival, the greater will be the reverence for life for purely rational reasons. 

 

The final chapter takes us back to Suriname, and the changes that took place politically since Wilson studied ants there. An authoritarian dictator took over, and essentially did what authoritarian dictators do. There is a line in that history that I am stealing, about the problem that outside countries have. Suriname cut off both democracies and communist states like Cuba, afraid of anything that might threaten power and control. 

 

All are wrestling with a problem as old as recorded history: how to deal with the kingdoms of Caliban.

 

The kingdoms of Caliban indeed. I can think of no better way to describe the Trumps and other dictators of history. They are all irrational rage and destruction, feeding fears and hatreds and leaving nothing but destruction behind them. Because Wilson looks at the long view, he notes that regimes are just blinks of the eye. They can be removed a generation later, and often are. What lasts forever is extinction, and that is why environmental degradation is the biggest long-term issue we face. They are all connected, though, as environmental arsonists like Jair Bolsinaro and Trump demonstrate. The same instinct behind authoritarianism seems to be connected to a willingness to burn the planet to the ground to make a few more bucks. 

 

I really loved this book, and look forward to reading the others in the collection. (And also the promised second volume of Wilson’s works from LoA.) 

 

***

 

Other Library of America selections that are related to conservation:

 

Home Economics by Wendell Berry

The Unexpected Universe by Loren Eiseley

My First Summer in the Sierra by John Muir

Walden by Henry David Thoreau

 

 

Wednesday, December 15, 2021

Two-Headed Woman by Lucille Clifton

 

Source of book: I own this. 

 

First, I should give credit to my friend J___ for introducing me to Clifton. Fortunately, a lovely hardback edition of most of Clifton’s poems came out in 2012, and I was able to get a copy. 

 

I’m not sure why I wasn’t particularly familiar with Clifton, as she did win some awards, and had a long career as a poet and educator. Perhaps it is related to my general lack of education about truly contemporary writers (I have discussed this in various places on the blog - the curriculum we used seemed to be in denial that the 20th century after World War Two happened. But also, while my parents were readers, they didn’t follow contemporary literature.) When I decided to start reading poetry more systematically after starting this blog, I had to go back and figure out who I should read from my own lifetime. 

 

I think another factor here, though, is that one particular name seems to have sucked up much of the poetic oxygen of the time, so to speak. And that would be Maya Angelou. Ask the average American to name a poet from the 1980s or 90s, and I bet most would name Angelou. I do not mean in any way to throw shade on Angelou here, just to point out few can name the current or past US poet laureates, but know her name. And, believe it or not, there were indeed other great poets who wrote during her lifetime. 

 

By the way, Joy Harjo is the current laureate - a worthy choice, and one of my favorite living poets. Past laureates that I think deserve more publicity than they get include Robert Pinksy and M. S. Merwin. 

 

Anyway, Clifton wrote from 1965 until her death in 2010 - an impressive 45 years of work. Her poems are generally written in free verse, often with no capitalization, although punctuation remains. The language is often described as direct or simple, but I think that understates her skill with words. Rather, I think her supposed simplicity belies a significant depth of thought, and nuance of metaphor. Language need not be flowery to be brilliant. 

 

Before getting into the poems themselves, it is worth mentioning as well that Clifton is a very physical poet, often focusing on bodies and embodiment. In particular, she wrote extensively about black bodies, and female bodies, and the ways that these are often offensive to cishet white males. Thus, there are tributes to her wide hips, and her tightly curled hair, and an utterly unapologetic frankness about female bodies as they age. 

 

One facet of this fierce pride in her own self is the references she makes to a peculiarity of her own body - and that of the women in her family. Polydactyly ran in the female genes of her family; she herself was born with six fingers on each hand, although the “extras” were amputated when she was a child. These “ghost” fingers come into many of her poems, as does an eye that eventually went blind. 

 

Related to this embodied view of reality was her belief in the soul of her mother, who she claimed to be able to communicate with regularly. This too comes up in her poems. 

 

I decided somewhat randomly to start with her collection, Two-Headed Woman, which won the Juniper Award in 1980. It contains an interesting variety of poems, broken down into several sections. I also read the three uncollected poems from 1975, which were adjacent in the book. Here are the ones that were highlights for me. 

 

The first is one of the uncollected ones. 

 

November 1, 1975

 

My mother is white bones

in a weed field

on her birthday.

She who would be sixty

has been sixteen years

absent at celebrations.

For sixteen years of minutes

she has been what is missing.

This is just to note

the arrogance of days

continuing to happen 

as if she were here. 

 

Simple, but…not simple. Such perfectly chosen words. So much contained in just a dozen lines. 

 

Next up is this one, mentioned briefly above, which you can hear Clifton recite here. She’s hilarious and snarky and delightful. (“I live in a culture where women are supposed to be eighteen to twenty, and I am not.”) Not all poets read their poems well, but Clifton is wonderful. 

 

homage to my hips

 

these hips are big hips

they need space to

move around in.

they don’t fit into little

petty places. these hips

are free hips.

they don’t like to be held back,

these hips have never been enslaved,

they go where they want to go

they do what they want to do.

these hips are mighty hips.

these hips are magic hips.

i have known them

to put a spell on a man and spin him like a top!

 

The other poems in this collection about her body are equally delightful. Coming from a subculture in which bodies in general are distrusted, and female bodies in particular (and especially their sexuality) are seen as the source of evil, Clifton’s unashamed embrace of her humanity - we are all embodied - is so refreshing. Here is another one about embodiment that I loved. 

 

to the unborn and waiting children

 

i went into my mother as

some souls go into a church,

for the rest only. but there,

even there, from the belly of a

poor woman who could not save herself

i was pushed without my permission

into a tangle of birthdays.

listen, eavesdroppers, there is no such thing

as a bed without affliction;

the bodies all may open wide but

you enter at your own risk. 

 

That one bears a number of re-readings for full appreciation. The layers peel back. 

 

As I read the collection, I posted a few individual poems on facebook, and it turned out that a lot of friends liked them. At least two added Clifton to their lists, which makes me happy indeed. One of the good things about social media (sure, there are downsides) is the ability to share the joys of poetry and music and a well-turned phrase without having to get people together from all around the world. 

 

I have mentioned many times that I am a sucker for a good nature poem, and even more for a good nature poem with a well-crafted metaphor for life. This triad of poems may be my favorite from the book. Two years ago, we visited Saguaro National Park, so the setting is familiar, and the images perfection. 

 

sonora desert poem

for lois and richard shelton

 

1.

 

the ones who live in the desert,

if you knew them

you would understand everything.

they see it all and 

never judge any

just drink the water when

they get the chance.

if i could grow arms on my scars

like them,

if i could learn

the patience they know

i wouldn’t apologize for my thorns either

just stand in the desert

and witness.

 

2. directions for watching the sun set in the desert

 

come to the landscape that was hidden under the sea.

look in the opposite direction.

reach for the mountain.

the sun will fall on your back.

the landscape will fade away.

you will think you’re alone until a flash

of green incredible light.

 

3. directions for leaving the desert

 

push the bones back

under your skin.

finish the water.

they will notice your thorns and

ask you to testify.

turn toward the shade.

smile. 

say nothing at all.

 

“If I could grow arms on my scars…I wouldn’t apologize for my thorns.” Damn. Such beautiful imagery and brilliant insights. 

 

Here is another one that I quoted, and could read and re-read a hundred times. Like many of the poems, this one has no actual title. 

 

the mystery that surely is present

as the underside of a leaf

turning to stare at you quietly

from your hand

that is the mystery you have not

looked for, and it turns

with a silent shattering of your life

for who knows ever after

the proper position of things

or what is waiting to turn from us

even now?

 

This is also one of the poems that resonated with my own spiritual journey over the last decade. The insights you don’t look for, but which appear unbidden and shatter your life are the ones that turn out to have been the most important moments of your life. Here is another poem on that theme that I loved (and quoted.) 

 

the light that came to lucille clifton

came in a shift of knowing

when even her fondest sureties

faded away. it was summer

she understood that she had not understood

and was not mistress even

of her own off eye. then 

the man escaped throwing away his tie and

the children grew legs and started walking and

she could see the peril of an 

unexamined life.

she closed her eyes, afraid to look for her

authenticity 

but the light insists on itself in the world;

a voice from the nondead past started talking,

she closed her ears and it spelled out in her hand

“you might as well answer the door, my child,

the truth is furiously knocking.”

 

And one more:

 

God waits for the wandering world.

he expects us when we enter,

late or soon.

he will not mind my coming after hours.

his patience is his promise.

 

After reading these, I had to wonder to myself that I had not discovered Clifton’s genius until my 40s. I would have loved these in my teens, twenties, and thirties too. But, better late than never - in keeping with the above poem. 

 

I went back and forth on whether to quote any of the poems from a cycle about the nativity. I intend to quote one in my annual Christmas poems post (stay tuned…) The cycle puts a fascinating spin on the Christmas story, reading from a female-centric viewpoint; yet along with rejecting the male-centric paradigm, it also rejects the ableist point of view, seeing the blind and lame as not inherently broken, and “healing” in a way as an ambivalent blessing. Anyway, I decided to quote this one here, and a different one in my Christmas post. The whole cycle is excellent, and I recommend the collection for that alone - but read the whole thing too. 

 

mary’s dream

 

winged woman was saying 

“full of grace” and like.

was light beyond sun and words

of a name and a blessing.

winged woman to only i. 

i joined them, whispering

yes. 

 

I’ll end with this one, another brilliant meditation, which ends the collection.  

 

testament 

 

in the beginning

was the word.

 

the year of our lord,

amen. i

lucille clifton

hereby testify

that in that room

there was a light

and in that light

there was a voice

and in that voice 

there was a sigh

and in that sigh

there was a world.

a world a sigh a voice a light and

alone

in a room. 

 

With such a long career, I have a lot more of her poems left to read, and I am looking forward to it.